Today was Monday and Rainy!
Rainy days make me think of cuddling up with a good book and a cup of coffee. With two little boys those relaxing moments don’t happen like they used to.
I do love rainy days but still feel down at the lack of sun shining through the windows.
How can rain make my little problems out to be so huge!?
I become “Negative Nancy” and start to dwell on the big picture – my whole life – past, present, future, children, career, etc. and dwell on everything at once!
I came across this verse today:
“My problems go from bad to worse. Oh, save me from them all! Psalms 25:17 (NLT)
This sounds so extreme but don’t you ever feel this way?
Today Jeffrey waited too long to go potty and pooped on the bathroom floor, he spilled water on my cookbooks, and purposely squirted Jack’s bottle on the couch and rubbed it in.
I know! These are such small issues in comparison to so many things! BUT today all I could see was my “too early morning” progressing from bad to worse. My body crying out… save me! I am a failure! Someone bring me a STARBUCKS!
I realize though – I can’t use this one day to focus on the entire week, or month or year. I need to take one day at a time.
I was productive in some ways today but not in others, I felt like a good mommy as well as a crummy one.
I am most thankful though for my Mom who said – “just have a sad day.”
Five years ago my dad passed away from an inoperable malignant brain tumor. The 6 years prior I watched him fight, to push forward and to embrace life even as he was treated with radiation, chemotherapy and a tumor invading his brain – robbing him of him.
My dad was strong and brave. He even took college classes up until two weeks before he passed away.
With all the strength he used to press on – he also had “sad days.” Special days my parents set aside just to cry together, to share their scariest thoughts, to watch movies and eat “comfort food.”
We can’t be strong every day. Some days need to be taken lightly. Special days chosen for tears, sadness, movies, pizza and ice cream.
We can’t stay in this place for good but we can let it out – recognizing how difficult life is but remembering tomorrow is a new day.
A day with happy moments, funny stories and laughter amongst stressful situations.
Everyday can’t equate to perfect. So if you need to – take a sad day to watch movies with your kiddos, a spouse or friend and eat cookies.
“You, Lord, keep my lamp burning: my God turns my darkness into light.” Psalm 18:28.
A line in the song Believer by American Authors says, “I’m just a believer that things will get better.”
Tomorrow is a new day.
Now go dance a little…