“Nothing is as uncomfortable, dangerous, and hurtful as believing that I am standing on the outside of my life looking in and wondering what it would be like if I had the courage to show up and let myself be seen.” –Brené Brown
This is how I imagine my life – just a little too uncomfortable with myself to experience the magic. Don’t get me wrong, I’m crazy blessed and happy BUT I sure need to loosen up
a bit a lot!
This afternoon, as I was thinking of who I want to be as a person, I looked up and saw Brené Brown’s book on vulnerability, Daring Greatly. Suddenly, the title had a whole new meaning to me.
That’s the kind of woman I want to be – I want to Dare Greatly – not only in vulnerability but in all areas of my life. I want to move out of my comfort zone and start taking the steps I need to become the person I want to be!
I always doubt. Am always unsure. Can’t quite wrap my mind around any direction or path I am supposed to be taking. In limbo is a good description of how I perceive myself as a person.
I dwell so much on what other people think of me. Do they like my writing? My art? Me? I always have guilt and get so uptight and stressed I unconsciously clench my teeth until my head hurts and my back is a bunch of painful knots.
The constant inner reflection of guilt, awkwardness, being scared, etc. is not the person I want to be. I want to embrace myself as I am, put all these fears on the shelf and be brave instead.
I want to Dare Greatly!
I want to call more and text less (I’ve always thought it was awkward to talk on the phone so I tend to avoid it).
I want to be a good friend even when I’m unsure where our relationship stands.
I want to do art whether I or anyone else think it’s beautiful or not.
I want to get out and water my garden even though my natural inclination is to let Caleb do it.
I want to eat healthy because I know I am capable! I know how to cook which solves a lot of problems.
I want to be active! I rode my bike across the U.S. and summited Mt. Hood so I know I am fully capable of pushing myself hard – even if it’s to get off my bum and take a walk.
I want to encourage other people with their goals and help them when I can.
I want to create the feeling of home no matter where we live.
I want to volunteer somewhere and serve.
I want to find God’s purpose for my life.
I want to be a better wife and mother.
I want to be more generous.
I want to be more loving and patient.
I want to laugh more and stress less.
These are all attributes I want my children to have – but how will they learn if I don’t teach them.
“…who we are and how we engage with the world are much stronger predictors of how our children will do than what we know about parenting.” Brené Brown.
I want to be an example to my sons so they too can lead a good life. I want to LIVE while I’m alive because there are so many who don’t get this opportunity.
I need to get out of the rut I am stuck in and stop dwelling on what I can’t do… and JUST DO what I can so I can BE who I want.
No one changes without effort. So I choose to Dare Greatly.
“…who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly…” -Theodore Roosevelt